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SonicWaffle!
21 July 2008 @ 02:27 pm
So I met Carrie and his wife Jess last night and was pleasantly surprised. Jess and I have so much it common it's scary, and Carrie is pretty cool once he relaxes a bit. The photo shoot itself was pretty much a flop, as I got roped into taking the pictures, and that is so not my forte! We ended going to the Mayflower Hotel per my request, and pictures WOULD have been gorgeous...Especially by the phone and elevator. Idk, I guess they are going to attempt it again later this week.

On a different note, Gary called today and seems under the impression that Tim has quit ESR. It just goes to show that he is STILL very self centered and immature. Tim never quit the band...Just started playing in another one as well! It's not like Gary has been proactive in booking shows this summer! I have a feeling that Brian has all but quit, but that has yet to be confirmed. I am going to have Tim call him later, as we don't need any bad blood within the family, especially over something so fickle!

I am going to get my house cleaned up today...It is an unacceptable mess!! I have been putting it off waaaay to long. Tim is home today, so I will be putting him to work=)

Iced Tea has a sexy voice!
 
 
SonicWaffle!
20 July 2008 @ 12:57 pm
Ugh...It's storming...All I want to do is go back to beeeeeed!!!!!!

I was going to dye my hair before meeting Tim's new band, but I really don't feel like messing with it. I have a ton of regrowth, but am hesitant because I'd like to be rid of the black hair for good. I am so ready for a change!!!!

Today is the anniversary of the shooting, and so far mom seems okay. I haven't talked to Alicia yet, but she had a party last night and is probably still sleeping. I truly hope that someday, this day will pass unnoticed for the two of them!

Meh...maybe I'll blog more later about it....But I doubt it! I prefer to go about the day as if it is any other.
 
 
Current Mood: Rain=Naptime
Current Music: Taking Back Sunday
 
 
SonicWaffle!
20 July 2008 @ 01:19 am
Is it just me...Or is everything getting more expensive by the day!!!!! Tim and I went shopping tonight and spent 170.00 dollars! Mind you, we went to Dots, Wal Mart, and Target....Here is what we bought.

Tennis Shoes for me (omg they are so CUTE!)
Tennis shoes for him
3 new shirts for me
A new shirt for him
Pair of jeans for me
2 packs of underwear
3 clearance bracelets (a dollar each)
strpey hand warmers

I am pretty sure that is it...We spent 15 bucks @ CC's pizza as well. I don't know...that just seems a bit excessive for what we bought. Pitiful, especially considering these stores get their crap from China and what not, so they pay very little per unit. I shudder to think what a trip to the mall would cost!

Oh well...I am thrilled with what I got. Tomorrow is Tim's bands photo shoot and practice, so I get to look spiffy when I meet them=)


 
 
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: The Used
 
 
SonicWaffle!
19 July 2008 @ 05:13 pm

What is your earliest memory of your life?


View 501 Answers

  My earliest confirmed memory is of my mother coming to my crib and asking me if I am sleeping, and then asking if I want to sleep with her. Naturally, my mother remembers more than I...Apparently, my mother was trying to break me of sleeping with her, but hadn't broken herself of it=) I remember the crib placement in the room, my pink bottle, and the purple feet pajamas I had on. I remember my mothers bed placement in the room as well...I was two.

  The odd thing about this is that although I remember this, and many other things in my life between ages 2 through 5 vividly...HUGE portions of my life are missing. Not entirely missing, as I remember the overall theme , but cannot recall specifics to save my life! I am sure I have blocked most of it...ages 5-14 were anything but pleasant. Ages 14-18, I can remember almost as vividly as my earlier memories, probably because they are a bit more recent...I wonder if those will fade when I hit my thirties? I would probably be better for it...But it is a tad unnerving when someone is speaking of an event that I was present and for, and simply cannot recall!!

Meh...I prefer to live in the present...so whatev!
 
 
SonicWaffle!
19 July 2008 @ 02:10 am
Nothing, and I mean NOTHING infuriates me like a bullshit DOUBLE STANDARD!!!!!!!


Okay that is not quite true...But it does anger me quite a bit!!!!


Here's the situation....

  Tim and I only have one car and he works about 60 hours a week. It is almost impossible for me to hold down my job, as public tansportation is pretty hard to come by in "suburbia". So after many, many months of "Oh no I have no ride to work" DRAMA, Tim decides he is going to try and get me hired on with him...He manages a local restaurant out here. Mind you, this setup would be wicked convenient as I could just ride out with him, work my scheduled hours...well you get the idea! He figures it shouldn't be a problem at all because the other manager's son works there...and she is the only other person that has to approve my being hired. So he goes to her and explains the situation...She calls corp. and they say NO, that under no circumstance can spouses work together.

   I am sure the clause she is referring to is a "no family" clause, not specifically a "No spouse" clause!!!! Tim pointed that out to her, and she informed him that corp. knows about her son, and doesn't have a problem with it...which I guess I can believe. The point is that it's ridiculous that for whatever reason, those rules don't apply to HER, but they would for us!

  I see little difference in the situations!!! Naturally, corp is worried about special privileges being given by the manager to the spouse, and problems from home carrying over into the workplace. The EXACT same thing can be applied to someones OFFSPRING!!!

 
BULLSHIT
BULLSHIT
BULLSHIT

  Tim gives his LIFE to this company...More accurately, they SUCK his life from him!  He goes above and beyond the "call of duty" on a daily basis for these assholes...specifically for this particular corp rep. I don't think it is asking to much for an exception to be made to a "rule" that they already pick and choose when they are going to enforce.

  I am not one that makes a habit of stomping my feet and screaming "thats unfair"...But in this case, it is and I am LIVID!!!!

  As it is...I have to put off going back to school due to the recent loss of our second car...Getting a ride to class is impossible!!!!

Seriously, I may just take our stimulus check (which is delayed) and get a beater!

I HATE BEATERS...I thought my days of this were OVER!!!!!!!

FUCK
FUCK FUCK
FUCK!!!!

My new mantra is "It's only temporary"

  

Ugh...I think my layout is going to make all of my letters lower case! When did it become cool to look like you can't put together a dammed sentence?!

I am seriously having a bad night!!!!!!!



 
 
Current Location: Suburban Hell
Current Mood: Screw Corp. America!!!!!
Current Music: Godsmack
 
 
SonicWaffle!
14 July 2008 @ 10:14 pm
I have neglected this blog for a year...Bad me!  A lot has gone on, and nothing has gone on! 



O Flowers of Wilt-Shire

Please burn in the fire

I ask not your blaze

Nor want your pain.

Grass pricks my back

White lilies wither to black.

Marigolds thread my hair

As wandering hands do not take care.

*** laughs

***** attacks

As white rose walls

Dry up.’
 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: listless
Current Music: Sarah McLachlan
 
 
SonicWaffle!
09 July 2007 @ 02:04 am

I am such a freakin nerd!

SUCH
A
DORKY
LITTLE
NERD :)

So here is the thing...I said from the moment the first movie came out and everyone went ape shit that I WOULD NOT so much as watch a PREVIEW! Call me the anti trend or whatever, I simply would not cave.

The movie I speak of is none other then...

Harry Potter!

Harry
F*ckin
Potter

Now I have stuck to my guns all this time, ignoring all of the "Oh Sam you will love it" or "Oh Sam lots of adults love those movies" or "Oh Sam please"...

Yes ladies and gentleman I kept my nonconformist word!

And then it happened...

As you know my husband just had hip surgery and is still very much confined to the house... So naturally, I am confined to the house as well! Boredom was starting to really get the better of us when my aunt said "I am going to bring you guys some movies when I stop out today". So she brings Pirates Of The Caribbean (which I still have not watched) and ALL FOUR Harry Potter movies!

The rest is history...I watched them, loved them with the fiery passion of a thousand suns...and am now counting down the days until the new one is released!

Yes people...I have crossed over into the dark side:)

But I suppose if a 58 year old dentist can do it...Why not 25 yr old me:)

But it gets worse...Oh yes people it get's SO MUCH WORSE!

There is a character in the movies named "Professor Snape"...
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Ohmigod...I don't know what it is about him or his character but let me tell you...I have never, IN MY LIFE, wanted an actor the way I do this little bloke!

I know, I know, totally pathetic!

It is obscene I tell you...

Whips
Chains
Handcuffs

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

And that was mild...

So I decide to check out his actors bio and guess what...

He is sixty one...

SIXTY ONE

Without that black hair and garb he definitely looks it! In reality, he is not attractive at all!

But put him in some robes, toss him a bottle of Clairol and LOOK OUT!

So that's it...That is the shameful truth in it's entirety!

 
 
SonicWaffle!

  Well ladies and gentlemen....Another Day...Another Rant! 
  {I am realizing my true misuse of ...}

  In the last few days I have found myself ranting about the educational system in this country.  So I figure why not blog about it...Why not share my truly enlightened opinion with the Lj community (*wink *wink)?!

  Before I begin, let me briefly recap my own schooling experience...

  In my youth, I attended so many schools it was disgusting, due to my ever changing living situation (which I am sure I will talk about at some point).  I attended both private (Catholic) and public school.  I attended schools in both impoverished and wealthy communities...
  Needless to say, I have a pretty broad spectrum opinion of the educational system in America!

  Now I have always been of above average intellect/IQ.  I know that probably sounds insanely egotistical...But why skirt around it?  I was reciting books from memory by age two and reading by age three.  By 4th grade, I was reading  on almost an adult level...Anyway you get the point!

  School would have been a breeze for me...If I hadn't been BORED OUT OF MY FREAKIN MIND!

  Naturally, I blew through the AP curriculum with straight A's (The occasional B in Math) but  was absolutely miserable!  I was constantly in trouble for behavior related issues (IE: Talking in class, daydreaming, fidgeting, etc)  I detested the classroom busy work we were forced to do on a daily basis...I wanted to ANALYZE what we were learning...To discuss, ask questions, etc.  I found out very quickly that most teachers discouraged that type of behavior...A lot of times going as far as reprimanding me for it!

  By the time I entered junior high school I had completely lost all interest.  I stopped doing homework completely and barely skimmed the reading material.  Teachers hated me with a fiery passion because I aced their quizzes, tests, and final exams solely on classroom comprehension.  I was a constant antagonist, trying to lure teachers into debate they obviously were not equipped to handle...In short, I made everyone as miserable as I!

  By the end of ninth grade I'd had enough.  I'd heard about the GED test and was chomping at the bit!  I figured I could take it, pass, and go directly into college!  I went to the powers that be (State Social Worker) and talked it over with her...Naturally she was totally against it!  I then tried to pursue an accelerated learning center that allowed you to finish in two years.  The powers that be wouldn't pay for it.  I ended up dropping out of school completley and obtaining full time employment...Which worked out well because God knows I never had anything I needed!

  The rest is history...I turned eighteen, took the GED, an am now pursuing higher education.

  The point is this...Our school systems are DEPLORABLE!

  They do not foster an environment that encourages APPRECIATION of knowledge! 
  
  They do not encourage youth to take the information they are given, process it, analyze it, expand on it, and form their own opinions!  

  They certainly are not taught any information relevant to daily living...IE

  Budgeting
  Employment
  Credit
  Employment Seeking
  College Prep
  Family Living

  Now I know budgets are limited but good lord...These things are detrimental to personal success!  The few classes schools DO offer are complete loads of crap!

  In Home Ec I learned to bake cookies, set a table, make bread from scratch, and sew a sweatshirt together...

  What the F*CK??

  Where is the relevancy in that??  When was the last time you made yourself a sweatshirt or baked bread from scratch?!  Here are the things that I feel should have been taught...

1) How to grocery shop and feed a family on a budget!
2) Proper kitchen etiquette to prevent cross contamination and food poisoning.
3) Proper and AFFORDABLE nutrition.
4) The importance of and how to keep a clean and sanitary house.
5) How to do laundry.
6) Infant and Child Care
7) How to and The IMPORTANCE of organizing and paying your bills.
8) How to balance a check book.
9) How to properly use credit cards.
10) How to seek out resources if you need help!

  Now I know you are supposed to learn this kind of thing at home, but the bottom line is that alot of kids DON'T!  How difficult would it be to include the above subjects into a high school curriculum?!  

  Also, I think alot of the subjects taught in school become irrelevant after so long!  How far do we really need to go in Science or Math.  Is Calculus or even Algebra something that is truly going to enrich people's lives?  How often do we draw on the knowledge that water is a mix of hydrogen and oxygen?

  WE DON"T...So don't spend an entire 4 weeks on it...Give them the basics and move on!  

  How about teaching things like...
  
  1) Light Philosophy...A great way to teach youth how to think critically and form their own opinions. Would also encourage an independent pursuit of knowledge!
  2) Creativity and The Arts...Teach youth some dammed culture and appreciation.  Help them find their own avenues of self expression...Kids on the whole would be alot happier and well adjusted!
 3) CURRENT politics and world issues...Along with government and all that, help kids to process what is going on around them!  Teach them how to make a difference and encourage them to do so! 
 4) Psychology and Sociology...Teach them about people...As they will have to deal with them! Also another great avenue of self exploration!
 5) Creation Vs. Evolution

  Yes I said it...Teach them both and let THEM decide. If you really wanted to spice up the pot, you could offer a class on world religion, allowing them to compare one to the other!  Once again, thought provoking!

  I guess what I am saying is this...As opposed to making kids memorize mindless facts for 12 years and then shoving them blindly into the world create an environment that compels them to want knowledge and education!  Give them avenues of self exploration and self expression...Along with the tools to make it in everyday life!  Encourage discussion, debate, and the introduction of new information!  Give kids a variety in courses to choose from!  Allow for other student groups other then the typical sporting teams, choir, and band.

  Let's try and produce a well rounded informed generation!!


  
  



   

 

    





 

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Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Joan Jett
 
 
SonicWaffle!
08 July 2007 @ 12:30 pm
  More quizes because well...Sometimes one just cares to be mindless!
 




Your 2005 Song Is

Beverly Hills by Weezer

"My automobile is a piece of crap
My fashion sense is a little whack
And my friends are just as screwy as me"

You breezed through 2005 in your own funky style!




Your Deadly Sins

Lust: 80%

Sloth: 40%

Pride: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Greed: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 23%

You'll die from overexertion. *wink*




Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Intuition

You are:

A true wordsmith - a master of words
Original, spontaneous, and a true inspiration
Highly energetic, up for any challenge
Entertaining and engaging, both to friends and strangers




You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.
While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.




Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP)

Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal.

Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.




Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

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SonicWaffle!
02 July 2007 @ 02:20 pm

Well ladies and gentlemen... I am now entirely convinced that as a society we are screwed! WHO is raising the youth of America?? WHERE are they getting their ideas...In all of my rebellion and angst I could have NEVER come up with today’s topic! Even now, at twenty five, I cannot comprehend...

Bug Chasers

Bug Chasers- Gay men (typically ranging between age 14 to 30) who pursue contracting the HIV virus, usually through public orgy's known as "Conversion Parties".

WHAT!!??

Yes people, you read that correctly! There really are people running around trying to contract the HIV virus!!

F*CKING HIV!!
I stumbled upon this information purely by accident one day while searching for acceptable insects to feed my turtles, and thus the research began. There are entire websites dedicated to finding people that are WILLING to give you the virus. Here are some reasons why people claim they desire infection...

1) "They feel left out of the gay community"!
2) "They feel that if enough people become infected, a cure will be found in a more timley manner"!
3) "They would rather have the virus then constantly worry about contracting it"!
4) "They simply do not want to be bothered with condoms"!
5) "It is an adrenaline rush...Some people barrel roll off of Niagra Falls, I bare back at conversion parties"!

This makes me sick...Physically sick! You know as well as I, the person or group of people that started this thing were sitting around one day, angry that they, themselves, contracted the virus and thus, the cycle began. It is like a cult of sorts, older men selling young boys on the idea and the boys selling their peers! How completely deplorable!!

How have we, as a society, become such that we breed youth that is completely desensitized to pain and suffering?
How have we gotten to the point were we have people running around that would rather contract a deadly virus and die a slow, miserable death, then wear a CONDOM?
How is it that people already infected are inhumane and cruel enough to want to impose that on a person that COULD NOT POSSIBLY understand what they are getting themselves into?
HOW...HOW...HOW?

To The Boys/Men Who have Not Yet Succeeded:

Please stop and think about what you are doing! Know that you are a beautiful, unique person worthy of life! Understand that contracting HIV is a tragedy of epic proportion! Contracting HIV will not make you a card carrying member of the gay community...You are that already simply by being who you are! Quite the contrary, HIV has been a large part of the stigma surrounding gay culture (although I don't believe one has anything to do with the other!) This will not bring you closer to the people you know that have HIV...If that person truly cared about you, they would not want you anywhere near it! Infecting the masses with HIV will never bring about a cure! A cure will only be found when enough money and researchers are allotted to do the job...And simply, when they find it! It will happen in it's own time, no matter how large the percentile of people infected! If you want to be proactive in HIV prevention, the best way is to not contract! If everyone takes every precaution available to them, Aids will die off and become a thing of the past! This cannot happen if everyone does not do their part! Know that the people that love and care about you would NEVER want this! Love yourself enough not to want this! Be proactive in the fight against HIV...PREVENT! If you need help...Reach out...Write me if you have to...But talk to someone!

To the Boys/Men That Have Contracted:

I am so sorry this has happened to you...No matter how it happened! I cannot imagine what you are going through right now! Please reach out to anyone you can! You cannot go through this alone! That being said, you need to understand that you now have a great responsibility. It is your moral and ethical obligation to NEVER knowingly pass this burden onto anyone! Doing that would only contribute to the problem...You need to be part of the solution! If you contracted through a conversion party, realize that you were taken advantage of...By men who they, themselves were taken advantage of! Know that this must stop! Do all that you can to educate young people...Speak out...Let people know how you were victimized (because you were, no matter how hard it is for you to believe)...Spread as much awareness as you can to prevent this from continuing! Do not allow your suffering to be in vain!

This is really all I can say on the topic...I just wish the world wasn't so ugly!











































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SonicWaffle!
01 July 2007 @ 05:42 pm
So I promise later on tonight I will post another riveting installment of Teenage Trends/Fads that freak me out! In the meantime, for the sake of killing some time I am going to fill oit mindless surveys!

So without further ado...

A 200 Question Fun Survey 4 Myspace (All The Bzoink Surveys Put Together)
Full Name::Samantha R.
Birthday::12-19-1981
Birthplace::New Orleans LA.
Eye Color::Green
Hair Color::Black
Height::5'3
Weight::140
Right handed or Left handed?:Right
Your Heritage::German
My Worst Habit::Smoking/Compulsivley Spending Money
Zodiac Sign::Sagitarius
Shoe Size::7
Pants Size::9
Innie or Outie?:Innie
Parents Still Together?:No...Are anyone's?
The Shoes You Wore Today::Flip Flops
Your Weakness::Oh Lord...Shopping, Chocolate, A Good Party,Someone In Need...
Your Fears::Never being successful...Dying and finding out Christian horror stories are true!
Your Perfect Pizza::Pineapple and Mushroom w/extra cheese!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year::Pass the Hobet and get into Radiology school!
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger:Brb and LOL...
Thoughts First Waking Up::Where are my cigarettes?
Your Best Physical Feature::My Eyes
Your Bedtime::Late night/Early Morning
Your Most Missed Memory::My Great Grandmother and lack of financial responsibility!
MY FAVORITES
Favorite color?:Green
Food?:Steak
Sport?:Is Kinky Sex a Sport...No seriously um...Is it?
Animal?:Orca Whale
Ice Cream?:Godiva Chocolate Cherry
Candy?:Swedish Fish
Store?:Hot Topic and 137
Salad Dressing?:Italian
Actor?:Robin Williams or Kevin Spacey or Tommy Lee Jones or Billy Bob Thorton
Song?:At The Moment...Heaven's On Fire (Kiss)
Letter?:Weird Question...I guess I am fond of the letter E...It is so dammed Versatile;)
Number?:25 Of course;)
Gum?:Orbitz
Holiday?:I hate them all until about the day before!
Season?:Spring
Toothpaste Flavor?:Minty Minty Mint
Radio Station?:The Buzzard
Perfume?:Pleasures (Estee Lauder)
Scent besides perfume?:Gasoline
Body part on the opposite sex?:Hairy Chest (Mmmm)
FRIENDS AND LIFE
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?:Haha...Well I am grown up! Professionally I am pursuing a career in radiology...All that I really want out of life is happiness and I have definatley found it it Timish!
How Do You Want To Die?:Painlessly
Turn ons::Depth, Intelligence, and a funloving, outgoing spirit!
Turn offs::Lack of the above and bad breath!
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You?:Mike...Definatley Mike!
Who's The Loudest?:Me Me Me
Who Makes You Laugh The Most?:Tim, Jimmy and Mike
Who Have You Known The Longest?:Mike
Who's The Shyist?:Tim
When Have You Cried The Most?:Oh wow um...Either when my grandma died or when my mom was shot.
What Is The Best Feeling In The World?:Being loved, respected, appreciated, and wanted!
Worst Feeling?:Opposite of the above!
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?:Someday I would like to live in NYC.
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be?:Second guessing myself.
How Long Do You Think You'll Live?:A long long time!
FINISH EACH SENTENCE
Let's walk on the:Banks of the French Riviera stealing kisses under the moonlight.
Let's look at the:Great cathedrals of Rome.
What a nice:surprise...You left a love note on the bathroon mirror!
Where did all the:Toilet paper go...TIM!
Why can't we:realize that the well being of mankind is ultimatley up to us and that if we all took a little responsibilty for it...The world would be a much happier place to be!
Silly, little:Rabbit...Trix are for kids! (what the hell are you supposed to say?)
Isn't it weird that:I have no idea how to answer this question!
Never under any circumstance:Take one moment of life for granted!
I wish:My stepfather had been normal...And that people cared more about people!
Everyone has a:Vice, Bliss and Tragedy.
I am:Tired and bored.
HAVE YOU EVER
Been In Love?:Yes...And married him:)
Been To Juvie?:Yes
Mooned Someone?:LOL...On multiple occassions!
Been Rejected?:Of course...Who hasn't?
Ran Away From Home?:Yes...Out of necessity.
Pictured Your Crush Naked?:Mmmm
Skipped School?:Yes
Thought About Suicide?:No never!
Slept Outside?:Yes for both recreation and necessity.
Laughed So Hard You Cried?:I LOVE that!
Cried In School?:Um...Once or twice.
Thrown Up In School?:Ohmigod...All over the floor!
Wanted To Be a Model?:No not really.
Cheated On Someone?:No
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?:Hahaha...I could write a book!
Seen A Dead Body?:Yes
Been Bitched Out?:Oh yes
Drank Alcohol?:Naturally...This must be the teeny bopper portion of the quiz!
Smoked?:Sadly, I do smoke.
Been On Drugs?:I have taken drugs...Never been a dedicated user.
Eaten Sushi?:No
Been On Stage?:Yes
Gone Skinny Dipping?:Yes
Shoplifted?:Once a loooong time ago.
Been Drunk?:Hmmm...That kind of goes hand in hand with drinking.
Been Called A Tease?:Yes
Been Beaten Up?:Yes
DO YOU
Swear?:More then I should.
Sing Well?:Oh God no!
Shower Daily?:Define shower;) Of course I do!
Want To Go To College?:Yes
Want To Get Married?:Married and loving it!
Believe In Yourself?:Most of the time.
Get Motion Sickness?:No
Think You Are Attractive?:Oh honey...I am so hot I could light a match with my ass!
Get Along With Your Parents?:Now that I am an adult...our relationship is decent. Alot of unresoved issues though...
Like Thunderstorms?:Love them
Play An Instrument?:I am learning the bass guitar.
Own An IPOD?:Yes
Pray?:Sometimes
Go To Church?:No
Sleep With Stuffed Animals?:Does Timish count?
Keep A Journal/Diary?:Yes
Dance In The Rain?:Only if I can be naked;)
Sing In The Shower?:To the dismay of the other inhabitants yes...
THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke?:Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King?:McDonalds
Single or Group Dates?:Either one is fine
Chocolate or Vanilla?:Vanilla
Strawberries or Blueberries?:Strawberries
Meat or Veggies?:Give me dead cow any day!
TV or Movie?:Movie
Guitar or Drums?:Guitar
Adidas or Nike?:Um...How about not going to spend that kind of money on tennis shoes...Heels yes...Tennis shoes no!
Chinese or Mexican?:Mexican
Cheerios or Corn Flakes?:Coco Puffs an option?
Cake or Pie?:Cake
MTV or VH1?:Um...Neither one play music anymore!
Blind or Deaf?:Blind
Boxers or Briefs?:Boxers
CAN YOU
Do The Splits?:Yes
Write With Both Hands?:No
Whistle?:Yes
Blow A Bubble?:Yes
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle?:Yes
Cross Your Eyes?:Yes
Walk With Your Toes Curled?:Yes
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose?:No
Dance?:Yes
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry?:No
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
You Touched::Tim
You Talked To On The Phone::My mom
You Instant Messaged::Danny:)
You Hugged::Tim
You Yelled At::Alicia
You Played A Sport With::Like...I don't even know.
WHAT'S THE LAST
Time You Laughed?:Earlier today at Tim
Time You Cried?:A few weeks ago talking about "that".
Movie You Watched?:Mr & Mrs. Smith
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed?:Mint
Joke You Told?:A bar joke
Song You've Sung?:Pussy Control
RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT
Where Are You?:At my computer in my dining room.
What Can You See Out Your Window?:The house across the street.
Are You Listening To Music?:Yes...Shiny Toy GUns
What Are You Wearing?:Jeans and a white top
What's On Your Mousepad?:Don't have one
BELIEFS
Do you believe there is life on other planets?:Maybe...I don't give it that much thought.
Do you believe in miracles?:Yes
Magic?:Not in the way you are thinking.
Love at first sight?:No...well maybe...I don't know
God?:Most of the time
Satan?:I don't want to
Ghosts?:yes
Santa?:Oh absolutley;)
Evolution?:Mildly
IN A BOY...
Fav Eye Color::Blue or Green
Fav Hair Color::Black or shaved
Short or Long Hair::Long or bald
Height::Taller then me
Weight::Doesn't really matter...as long as they can walk:)
Best Clothing Style::Gothic, Punk, or Casual...It really doesn't matter
RANDOM
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?:Italy
Number Of CD's I Own::I burn my music
Your Good Luck Charm::Don't have one
How many pillows do you sleep with?:4
Do you drink milk?:No
Person You Hate Most::My stepdad
Most Outdated Phrase::Sup
Do you think God has a gender?:No
Where do you think we go when we die?:I am not sure
How many rings until you answer the phone?:2 or 3
What is something scientists need to invent?:A cure for Aids...and a self cleaning house
Are you a health freak?:No
Are you a virgin?:Hahahahaha
If you could travel into space, where would you go?:Anywhere really...Just space:)
What is the worst weather?:SNOW and ICE
Did you play with Barbies as a child?:Yes...until I asked why they weren't anatomically correct...After that they just disappeared;)
How many grades have you failed?:None
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SonicWaffle!
30 June 2007 @ 03:27 pm

So just to let you all know (who is actually going read this?) I will probably be rapid fire posting for about a week BECAUUUUUSE...I have no life;) No seriously, my husbund just had a full hip replacement (no he is not 100, he had Perthes) so I am chained to the house! Obviously I don't mind (In sickness and in health and all that) but I must do SOMETHING to pass the time!
Anyway, on to today's topic...Teenage Trends/Fads that FREAK ME OUT!

Let's jump right into it shall we?

1) The ProAna Movement!


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So obviously you girls have never tasted Krispy Kreme! What is this...WHAT THE F*CK IS THIS??! When did it become socially acceptable to look like this...
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Do I really have to state the obvious? This is not beauty!!!!! This girl, like so many others, is casket bound! She will never grow up, get married, have children, or experience any of the other wonderful things life has to offer!  She will spend her VERY short life battling illness, injury, lonliness, confusion, depression, and all of her subsequent food issues!  In her own mind, she will never be thin enough, pretty enough or smart enough.  She will abuse herself over and over again, starving for weeks, binging when she just can't take it anymore, and then starving again.  She will isolate herself from everyone, trying to hide the sick, twisted mess she has become!  In the end, she will die... Possibly a very slow and painful death!
  No one will say she was beautiful.
  She will be a statisitc.

  Why girls?  Why are you spending your young, responsibilty free lives on "Livejournal Proana" learning to become this shell of a human being?  This what you strive for?  Eating disorders are not a game or an acceptable lifestyle choice!  
  There is no "healthy"  or "responsible" way to be anorexic, no matter how many vitamins you take or regiments you follow!  YOU WILL DIE!
  There is no such thing as perfect!  Your physical appearance does not define you, and certainly will not be what brings you happiness!  
  
  Now as far as these websites go...Let me say this about that.  The disclaimer always reads "We are not here to promote or teach eating disorders"...COME ON GIRLS, that is exactly what they are doing!  You are dealing with a group of women that are so deep in denial they can't see straight!  Of course they will be your friend and help you...Misery loves company!  THEY couldn't be sick if YOU are doing it to. You are nothing more then pawns...They use you to make themselves feel normal, just like their illness!  They have a disease, an obsession, a compulsion!  They NEED HELP!  No matter what they say, Anorexia is not their badge of honor!  They are not being proactive and doing what is best for them...That is what they say, but it is BULLSHIT!  They are hiding!  They feel they have no control over their lives, so they control what they eat!  Most are victims of some type of hellacious abuse, so their issues go well beyond the ED!  They are like drug addicts...On a downward spiral and will gladly take you with them if you are willing!
  Some will wake up, get help and recover...Others will die!
  Those are the only options available!

  Bottom Line...If you have an Eating Disorder....I mean a REAL COMPULSION, get help!  If you are not ready or willing fine...But at the very least, keep it to yourself!  Stop promoting this sick and twisted behavior!  You have no right to push this burden onto young and inpressionable girls!  If you must have your website, limit the content and keep the minors off!  Do not post tips and instructions on how to be a successful anorexic!  Do not encourage people to starve themselves...For God's sake, that is inhumane!  You wouldn't encourage someone to commit suicide would you?  I hate to tell you, but that is exactly what you are doing!

  If you do not yet have an eating disorder, but are trying to "LEARN ONE"...Just STOP!  
  This is what I want you to do...Go make yourself a sandwich or something!  I know you are hungry, miserable, and probably have a headache.  A couple Tylenol probably wouldn't hurt, but make sure you eat first!  After that, follow this checklist...

1)  Unsubscribe from all the ProAna sites you belong to!
2)  Delete all Thinspiration videos!
3)  Open Limewire (or whatever) and delete all Thinspiration Songs!
4)  Go to your myspace page (or whatever) and delete all Thinspiration graphics/text
5)  Take down all posters of celebrity Ana's (remember, they got help for a reason) and all other pics/posters of the  
      Thinspiration variety!
6)  Hide all trigger items (Exercise machines, scales, whatever)
7)  The MOST IMPORTANT...Call someone and tell them what you are struggling with!  Parent, Teacher, Friends Parent, Crisis Line, ANYBODY!  Be prepared to do whatever you have to (IE counseling or whatever) to get you through this self esteem issue you are having!

  DO IT NOW!!

  Don't wait until you to are on this downward spiral!



  You know what's funny...This entry was not supposed to be an outreach type post!  I planned on doing the whole "what the hell is wrong with kids today" kind of thing but....It just didn't happen:)  I am just so completely apalled by this whole thing...I mean, when I was in school this was simply not an issue!  I mean, did we have people with ED's, yes, but it certainly was not the "cool" or "scene" thing to do!  Seriously guys...WHAT THE HELL is going on?


  





  

 
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SonicWaffle!
30 June 2007 @ 01:39 am

  Okay so...Either I am a complete dumbass OR customizing Livejournal is dammed near impossible! Now understand, I have always used Myspace...Which God knows is much easier!  It took me two days to get a layout on this thing, and I still cannot get any pics other then the one you see now to work! I keep getting error messages like "the file is to big" or whatever! I even had a little episode where no matter what pic I tried to download, it kept showing the first one I tried...which was not the greatest one I have ever taken considering I was completley wasted and half passed out! So basically, this blog will ALWAYS look exactly the way it does now, as I am never EVER messing with it again! I may put some pics of me in a post...But here is the thing about that....As I said, I usually use myspace, and since all of my close friends, family, in laws, coworkers etc have my page...Well let's just say I cannot blog, God knows sometimes you just have to vent!  I am thinking annonymity is probably the best way to go here:)  So that's all for now:)

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SonicWaffle!
30 June 2007 @ 01:33 am

 My Name Is Samantha:)
 I Am Twenty-Five Years Old & Live In Ohio...
 I Was Married Feb. 17th 2007 To The Most Wonderful Man On Earth...
 My Family Is Crazy...
 I Love Them All To No End...Even When They Make It Infinatley Impossible!
 I Am Outgoing, Spontaneous, The Life Of The Party...
 Sometimes It Gets Me In A Little More Trouble Then It's Worth!
 I Love Music And The Arts!
 Dancing Is My Soul Expression!
 I Have Waaay To Much To Say...
 Will Anyone Listen?


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